Thank you so much for sharing your words with so much grace. I felt every. single. one. of the emotions you felt. The jealousy is so real. The grief that my body did not want to match my ambition. That for some reason, creating in my outer world was incompatible with creating a life inside my body. The knowledge that once my baby was born, my brain, body, and schedule would be permanently changed.
I have a six month old now. I've gotten so much of my "old self" back, and there is so much joy yet the grief still lives on. More than anything, I have to keep reminding myself to be present. I know that the best thing I can do for the world is to give my baby the presence + nurturing + regulated nervous system mom she deserves. And it's not...something I feel ambivalent about. It's so obvious that she is my #1 priority now, and there's no doubt of the importance of my role. But the sadness of what I no longer have time or energy for lives on...I comfort myself with visions of what she and I will create together when she's able to start drawing, singing, dancing, and understanding jokes. <3
Ah! I feel your words so deeply. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. Truly, your resonance is a gift to me. I also feel that pull between the real grief of what's lost and the hope + immense joy of what's to come. It's like my heart is literally being stretched, so that there is capacity to be with the more, the deeper, the nuanced and complex. The baby isn't even born yet, I'm already learning so much from these experiences. Your priority and vision for what you and your baby can and will co-create is inspiring and beautiful. I wish for you and your family's wellbeing and ease <3
I am serious about wanting to hear about your relationship with parenthood 🫶 please share if you’re open to it
Thank you so much for sharing your words with so much grace. I felt every. single. one. of the emotions you felt. The jealousy is so real. The grief that my body did not want to match my ambition. That for some reason, creating in my outer world was incompatible with creating a life inside my body. The knowledge that once my baby was born, my brain, body, and schedule would be permanently changed.
I have a six month old now. I've gotten so much of my "old self" back, and there is so much joy yet the grief still lives on. More than anything, I have to keep reminding myself to be present. I know that the best thing I can do for the world is to give my baby the presence + nurturing + regulated nervous system mom she deserves. And it's not...something I feel ambivalent about. It's so obvious that she is my #1 priority now, and there's no doubt of the importance of my role. But the sadness of what I no longer have time or energy for lives on...I comfort myself with visions of what she and I will create together when she's able to start drawing, singing, dancing, and understanding jokes. <3
Ah! I feel your words so deeply. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. Truly, your resonance is a gift to me. I also feel that pull between the real grief of what's lost and the hope + immense joy of what's to come. It's like my heart is literally being stretched, so that there is capacity to be with the more, the deeper, the nuanced and complex. The baby isn't even born yet, I'm already learning so much from these experiences. Your priority and vision for what you and your baby can and will co-create is inspiring and beautiful. I wish for you and your family's wellbeing and ease <3